I want diapers, but I don’t want to want diapers.

While emailing back and forth with another Diaper Lover I made a comment that he pointed out. “I want diapers, but I don’t want to want diapers.” It is that internal battle that racks so many of us as we grow up, often siloed to ourselves, trying to figure this out.  Why would anyone want … Continue reading I want diapers, but I don’t want to want diapers.

Binge and Purge, digitally and diapers

It happened.  The thought entered my mind again, but in a new way.  Get rid of the things, because throwing something away is the best way to never think about it again. (not so much).  The difference in this thought process, as opposed to my previous binge/purge thoughts, is that it surrounds the digital footprint … Continue reading Binge and Purge, digitally and diapers

That’s it, Honeymoon period is over, I don’t like myself again..

It has been a roller coaster of emotions the last few days.  There has been little balance or stability, and I have to find a way to get right.  The issue is that there is more than one thing out of whack, and that has been exacerbating the issue.  If this was just about diapers … Continue reading That’s it, Honeymoon period is over, I don’t like myself again..

Hello rock, meet hard place

The emotions behind self-discovery and comprehension and the battle to try and share yourself with someone else.   I am sure that every ABDL at some point has experienced some version of this.  Whether it be within themselves or the desire to have a conversation with someone else we have all struggled with this internal desire … Continue reading Hello rock, meet hard place

My “attempt” to talk about it with my parents

I just finished another post where I referenced this part of my story, and I realized that I should probably explain this vain attempt at telling my parents to provide a bit of context for Hello rock, meet hard place (coming 8/1/2019) before posting it.  There is no huge reveal in this story, I don’t … Continue reading My “attempt” to talk about it with my parents

Third Time’s a Charm? We don’t always get things the first time.

During today’s lesson it was discussed Peter and his association with the number three.  He was told that he would deny the Savior three times, and as much as he fought that internally it happened.  It wasn’t until the third time that he truly didn’t feel the impact of what he was doing as well … Continue reading Third Time’s a Charm? We don’t always get things the first time.

Balancing your life and your little side

So much of life is deciding where to put your energy.  What will I work on today, and how much effort will I put into it?  If you have children that decision-making tree grows a lot more branches as your children have nine million questions and desires of their own.  All to often we find … Continue reading Balancing your life and your little side

My person, my best, and the “whys” inside my head

The hardest part about my journey to self acceptance and understanding has been that my person, my best friend is the person I cannot be little around.  I cannot vent or be 100% vulnerable because of discomfort that is felt from both of us. I feel so conflicted and torn, but the person I would … Continue reading My person, my best, and the “whys” inside my head