This feels a bit like binge and purge again. Perhaps I had experienced it in another way aside from just throwing everything diaper-related away in hopes of never thinking about it again in a moment of weakness when I reached out to my journal to share myself with the blank pages to the story of … Continue reading Journaling my diapers, just to rip it out
It happened. The thought entered my mind again, but in a new way. Get rid of the things, because throwing something away is the best way to never think about it again. (not so much). The difference in this thought process, as opposed to my previous binge/purge thoughts, is that it surrounds the digital footprint … Continue reading Binge and Purge, digitally and diapers
There is an individual and family study program developed for the members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. This program is called Come, Follow Me and it provides a study guide for my family to have Gospel discussions in our home throughout the week. We began our week talking about being united … Continue reading United
I doubled up last night as I was very hydrated. While getting ready this morning I found that my most outer layer was still dry. I don’t typically wear at work, but decided it was ready to go and so was I. I enjoy the space that I am in when adulting in diapers. I … Continue reading Friends I may never know
It has been a roller coaster of emotions the last few days. There has been little balance or stability, and I have to find a way to get right. The issue is that there is more than one thing out of whack, and that has been exacerbating the issue. If this was just about diapers … Continue reading That’s it, Honeymoon period is over, I don’t like myself again..
All too often we associate repentance with negative feelings. It isn’t too hard to make that correlation because if often comes after we acknowledge that we have done something wrong. In a talk this morning a missionary said “Don’t think of repentance as a bad thing”, but as an opportunity for growth. An opportunity to … Continue reading Repentance is not a bad thing
We are visiting a church in another town this weekend. A different congregation, with a completely different dynamic from our typical Sunday. It is not out of the ordinary to be greeted by a number of people when visiting another Ward (what our church calls the geographic boundaries that constitute a congregation) before the Sacrament … Continue reading Visiting, feeling like an outsider, and extending a smile to someone in need
The emotions behind self-discovery and comprehension and the battle to try and share yourself with someone else. I am sure that every ABDL at some point has experienced some version of this. Whether it be within themselves or the desire to have a conversation with someone else we have all struggled with this internal desire … Continue reading Hello rock, meet hard place
Fasting is common in religious practice. It is the practice of removing food and possibly water from your day for some period of time. We are promised blessings from removing that from our lives for a small moment in a effort to focus on the spiritual. This time of focus is suggested to bring a … Continue reading Fasting, the vehicle to overcome any struggle or obstacle in our lives.
Undoubtedly at some point in your journey in the life of a little or ABDL you have felt alone. You have felt shame. You have felt uncertainty. Each of these feelings come as we wander around in the dare trying to understand what we are experiencing. Each of us have our own story, but so … Continue reading No one wants to feel broken