Learning to understand my aberrant self. Working through my “big three” with the discussions around ABDL (Adult Baby, Diaper Lover) in my personal, professional, religious, and family life.
Waiting on the Lord - Jeffrey R. Holland https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3DVpRFRFKME We get so tired with our desire to wear diapers. Something that has been placed on our shoulders that we didn’t ask for. How long do we wait for relief? So many of our questions surrounding diapers begin with “Why?” We ask why a trail or … Continue reading Taking the first step amidst our trials
General Conference October 2020 - Saturday Afternoon Session - Bishop W. Christopher Waddell Calamities and trials WILL come in our lives. They can be personal or general in nature, and vary in severity and impact. Diapers find themselves, in my own life at least, on both sides of this conversation. They have been the trial, … Continue reading There will be bread
In my own life I have what I call my “big 3.” They are even referenced in the header of my blog. Having a desire to wear diapers as a teenager and adult is one of my big three. It is something that is part of who I am for as long as I can … Continue reading What is rooted inside us
More often than not we choose not to leverage the power of the Gospel in our lives. We make the choice to let go of the Iron Rod, and stumble in the dark. This life is about gaining our mortal bodies, and learning through our own experiences and choices. Through our strife, our troubles, our … Continue reading The burdens we choose to bear alone (when we don’t have to)
There are so many versions of this quote, but the last few times I heard it in a meeting or a Facebook post, or in passing it resonated with me in a different way. Whatever we put out time, attention, and passion into will grow (whether that be healthy or destructive). So many time when … Continue reading What we choose to focus on will grow
The last year has taught me a lot about myself. I’m learning how much I didn’t allow myself to understand about myself. I spent three decades trying to hide part of myself from anyone else, but more importantly from myself. I would binge amidst feelings and desires I didn’t understand, and then be ashamed of … Continue reading One minute of patience
I have been working through a number of trials in the last few months. Each of these trials, individually, would not seem to be daunting and overpowering, yet combined they have entangled me in a trap of emotional bondage. 2020 has proved to be aberrant, and does not show signs of slowing down in its … Continue reading Comfort in Trials
Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which entereth into that within the veil;Hebrews 6:19 Thoughts from Hope, an anchor of the soul Where do we place our faith? Where do we anchor ourselves? Upon what rock, or sandy place do we build the foundation in which … Continue reading Hope, an anchor of the soul
During a talk I recently listened to the following scripture was paraphrased from Isaiah 6:9: “And he said, Go, and tell this people, Hear ye indeed, but understand not; and see ye indeed, but perceive not.” It is estimated that we make ~35,000 choices each and every day. Some choices are proactive, and the majority … Continue reading Seeing and perceiving, hearing and understanding
Some weeks ago we decided to begin raising chickens. My daughter has been asking for some time to have some, so we purchased six and began raising them under a heat lamp in our mudroom. These chicks soon became part of our family, and were part of my children’s school and play. They were handled … Continue reading Who we are when no one else is looking?
