That teddy bear has been way more of my journey than I ever thought it would be. It was purchased in a moment of stress where I think I wanted to reach for something to hold, and then had to wait a week for it to arrive. In that week I wondered if I made a good choice, or if there was going to be a huge teddy bear at my house that would end up causing a huge issue.
Contrary to all my stress and worry it has been a benefit and help to me in the littlest ways. The most recent little way was that I actually reached for it when I was in bed to cuddle with. I constantly want to cuddle with my wife, but I also snore rather well so we don’t often cuddle in bed (I’m my own worst enemy apparently). I realized that evening how much I enjoy the feeling of embrace, even if it is with an inanimate object. A very, very soft inanimate object though. 🙂
Needless to say I’ve been more than a little surprised at the return on investment that I’ve seen from this teddy bear. I have been sleeping better, and I think it might have something to do with it. The first time was nerve racking because I still worry about what my wife might think seeing me sitting there embracing a teddy bear, but she’s been that bear’s biggest defender against the army of children in my home that are all trying to find a way to get it off my bed and into their room.
The lesson I would pass onto the rest of my ABDL friends out there would be to allow yourself to try new things. Allow yourself to be vulnerable to things you didn’t think you should be able to try out. Find the right way and space, and allow yourself the opportunity to see if something (printed diapers, teddy bear, onesies, pacifiers) might actually help you out. For the longest time I wouldn’t allow myself to embrace anything little, and I’m learning that with the support of my wife that these things are okay. I grow in my self acceptance, and my love for her through the compassion that she shows me. I don’t think I would have been able to grow like I have in the last two years without her alongside me on this journey of discovery. A journey that now has an oversized teddy bear in a onesie hoodie sitting between our pillows on our bed.
Cuddles are comforting
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