Self acceptance and who I allow myself to be

There have been many times that I have stood in front of a mirror I have at my house and seen myself in a diaper.  I shame and berate myself for what I am.  What kind of a person am I?!  For more than thirty years I would do that to myself with no positive … Continue reading Self acceptance and who I allow myself to be

Sculpting our best selves

There are moments that exist within the walls of our mind where we struggle, battle, converse, and reconcile who we are with ourselves.  These can be the most gratifying or painful conversations that we ever have.  All too often we avoid these conversations because they are painful.  Growth, change, and improvement is painful.  Like most … Continue reading Sculpting our best selves

The moments we might not even remember

We all have experiences that shape our lives.  These might be huge events or small moments in the history of our lives, but they occur.  There are times these experiences become immediately useful to us, and other times we may not incorporate them into who we are for years.  There are lesser times, unfortunate times, … Continue reading The moments we might not even remember

Coping Mechanisms and when shame creeps in

Everyone has a mechanism with how they deal with fear.  For each and everyone of us it is something different. In a time where we are social distanced and coping with with a myriad of stresses we must: 1 - know what our mechanisms are 2 - acknowledge to firstly ourselves, and if needed others, … Continue reading Coping Mechanisms and when shame creeps in

Journaling my diapers, just to rip it out

This feels a bit like binge and purge again.  Perhaps I had experienced it in another way aside from just throwing everything diaper-related away in hopes of never thinking about it again in a moment of weakness when I reached out to my journal to share myself with the blank pages to the story of … Continue reading Journaling my diapers, just to rip it out

Hello rock, meet hard place

The emotions behind self-discovery and comprehension and the battle to try and share yourself with someone else.   I am sure that every ABDL at some point has experienced some version of this.  Whether it be within themselves or the desire to have a conversation with someone else we have all struggled with this internal desire … Continue reading Hello rock, meet hard place