Recently, I had a work trip coupled with a family trip where I met up with everyone else. It was an opportunity for me to wear a few days in a row. While getting ready to drive to the customer’s premise I decided to pad up for the trip, and put a printed diaper out on the bathroom counter top. I ended up getting distracted by my wife. In the moment I thought about it being out, but decided to leave it out and be confident about what I was planning to do (she knows that I wear when I travel). She went into the bathroom, and made the comment “Care Bears, huh?” in a joking way (close, they were Tykables Overnights). Then on my way out the door she slapped my padded but and giggled at me. It was such a little thing, that had a big impact!
From there I headed out and began working. It was just me and the office for the evening so I wore without a worry, and even had to change there because I worked into the night. I got to the hotel late and must have been very much “crinkling with confidence” because I don’t know the last time I felt this comfortable and content wearing a diaper in public. I got settled in for the night and woke up the next morning to head back to the office.
I do not have the opportunity or desire to wear for long periods of time, but I took this as an opportunity to be padded as close to 24/7 as I could for the couple days before I reunited with my family. I was back in the office, fully staffed this time, with a bit of a crinkle and wrapped up the work I had set out to do. I spent the rest of the afternoon padded and relaxing a bit as I was drained from the work of the previous 24 hours.
The next morning I woke up for breakfast and padded up more than I normally do. I do not like to be overt in public or try to make it known that I was wearing, but this was a bit more than normal for me. Getting back to my room for breakfast I decided that I would stop wearing a number of hours before I had to because I felt I needed to rein myself back in. In that morning of over padding I began to think if I had “too much of a good thing.”
I appreciate and respect the balance that I have created for myself, but I feel like I am accepting my abberant self a bit more, and may be a bit too confident for where I want to be. Later that weekend I continued to reflect and had the saying “moderation in all things” come to mind. Keeping things within the bounds they should be is vital to maintaining the balance and healthy relationship I have with diapers in check.
I experienced a myriad of emotions in the few days I had to have my little self be more prominent, but it helped me appreciate the adult side of myself that is very logical, balanced, and rational. I think my little side is probably very much the opposite. My little side is more of the little kids that is running away from their parents in public half dressed in a shirt and a diaper. It is a tall order for the adult side of myself to keep my little in check, but I think the two create a person that is able to destress and unwind so the adulting can happen. I really do think my little wants to help me.
Find that space little ones where can run around half naked, even if only in our thoughts! Keep things in balance.