It is interesting to me to see how the urge and desire of diapers have come and gone throughout my life. It may be partially opportunity and availability, and partially out of need. When I returned home from my mission I had the opportunity to wear more, and I remember being excited as it was one of the first things I did when I was presented with the opportunity.
I’ve found that diapers become an outlet for stress and comfort. I have other parts of my life that provide those things, and sometimes I need diapers less. I have gravitated to some of these other things, and I don’t want diapers to take away from my enjoyment of other parts of my life. Again balance comes into play.
I don’t know if I’ve told this part of my story, but it came to mind today so I wanted to share it. Again, after returning home from my mission and getting back to school I went and bought the old, reliable six-tape Depend “briefs” that I had worn previously. It was good to be back in them with the little frequency that I did wear them. Quickly my circumstances changed and I found I didn’t have the opportunity to wear them anymore. I began dating my wife, and diapers became a memory and something I didn’t need or want. I don’t remember having that urge or desire to them for some time after beginning college.
I’m sure I had the conversation inside when I was getting married, that like most others I was going to suppress my urge for diapers because of my wonderful fiance. I would make it go away, and move on. Perhaps, “grow up” if you will. I remember even worrying about what I would do when my children were born and diapers were in my home. Perhaps that is when it came back more, I honestly can’t remember. The point I want to convey, is that they did come back.
Most ABDLs I talk to have a similar story. It WILL come back. It will only be a matter of time before the desire returns, and it did for me. Lucky for me Depend had decided to discontinue that diaper and I found cases of them for a heavy discount. I was able to have diapers in a very infrequent basis, and not have to purchase them for years. It wasn’t until much later when I first told my wife I liked to wear diapers that I began to look anywhere else for them, and discovered my first ABDL diapers.
For those littles that haven’t shared, and are hoping it will just go away… or to the loved ones of an ABDL wanting to “fix” their partner please understand that it has been my experience, coupled with the experience of others that it does not go away. If you fight it and cannot begin to gain a comprehension or understanding for what it is providing you emotionally then it can fight back. That fighting back will come in the form of confrontations internally or as a couple.
Be strong, be bold, and be brave enough to begin to have the conversation. Loved ones, PLEASE create an environment of trust where your spouse, fiance, or boy/girlfriend can open up and begin to communicate. MANY times, this is the first time they are vocalizing it!
The course of action I am now taking is how to incorporate and make it part of a healthy life for me and my wife. We are taking Baby Steps, and they continue to pay off. I know I can be brave, because my wife has shown me how brave she is to walk into the dark with me.